Have there ever been times in your life when you can't understand the timing of everything going on?
I have seen things work out incredibly well. Cases in point: a few years ago I was supposed to start work on a contract, but they had to postpone the start date. Our daughter's wedding happened during that time, so I was "given" the gift of time to help with that. When that contract ended and I didn't have follow-on work immediately, I was able to take a needed trip to see my (at the time) 93 yr old father for his birthday.
When work again was not forthcoming, I was able to work on updating/renovating our rental house (which took me a long time as I had to learn along the way). Just as I finished up and it was ready to rent, I received a call from a former colleague who had a job for me.
My last job ended the beginning of September, and it looked like another job wouldn't open for a time. Yes, it was frustrating (I can't tell you how much I worry about not being able to find a job!). Three days later, I had to fly out to be with my father who was admitted to the hospital with pneumonia. I was able to stay with him for two weeks. If I had been working, I would not have been able to do that.
Now the "not-so-fun" timing… When I was helping my dad during that time, I got a call for a potential job and had to cut my stay short. I flew back here, and got the contract, but I felt so bad not being able to stay with my dad (he was by then in rehab and having a tough go adjusting). Since then the contract has been in a "temporary stop work" status until some legalese could be straightened out so I told my brother I would go with him out to dad's to clear out his condo (we moved my dad to Tennessee, which is another story) and get it ready to sell. The same day I contacted my brother I got the call that I can restart the work here, and because of delays, I have to get going on it, which means I can't go help my brother. All of which really bothers me as I don't want him to have to do all of it on his own.
Timing is everything. I can see sometimes how blessed I have been with the timing of things. Gaps have been opened that allowed me to help my family, be there for them, do needed things for Mr H and myself. But doors have also closed on my being able to do other things that I feel are important and worthy (helping my dad and brother).
I am trying to learn and accept that I have to really put things in the Lord's hands and it's His timing. Did He really provide me the time "off" of regular work to accomplish service for my family? Because I believe all good comes from Him, I do believe that. Is there a reason I'm not able to go out and help my brother? I want to believe there is good reason, not the least of which is that I have such strong ties to San Diego and selling my dad's condo will essentially cut those ties forever. Yep, I do tear up thinking about it (wimp that I am).
So does anyone else have those questions about timing? Or am I just (yet again) over-thinking?
Cheers…
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